Artist: Victoria Black
Title: Back Around
Genre: Pop, Trip Hop
Length: 4:15
Written By: V.Black, D.Khan
Produced By: Deneil
Label: Five Pesky Kids
From The Album: Beautiful Mess

Information
"Back Around" is a pop/trip pop ballad written by Victoria Black and Deneil Khan. It is the eleventh and final track on Black's long awaited sophomore effort, "Beautiful Mess". The song was written and recorded in January 2014, becoming one of the last songs Black recorded for the album alongside the rest of the tracks she recorded with Deneil. Production of the track comes from the aforementioned English producer/rapper Deneil. "Back Around", alongside "Immune", "Collisions", "Take Me Home", "Bulletproof" and "Beautiful Mess" was recorded in the makeshift studio within the basement of Deneil's home. The majority of the track was written by Deneil when Black showed off some rough lyrics to him and explained the story behind them.

The lyrics of the song describe the grieving and guilt felt by a girl who lost a loved one. While the song doesn't explicitly say it, the family member that has passed away is her elder brother. The song describes how the girl and the brother had an argument, fight or disagreement of some sorts and hurtful things had been said, especially on the girl's part - "It wasn't the warmest of partings, I said a few words that I eternally regret". This encounter was their last before the untimely death of the brother. While the song is not directly about a situation Black experienced herself it is one that she found herself close to as the girl in the song is actually one of Black's closest friends.

"I think that "Back Around" is one of the standout songs on the record, it really strikes a chord with me and is definitely one of the most powerful tracks on the album. They always say save the best until last and that's the reason that I decided to make this the closing track. I always tend to write from the heart and there is no subject that can't be explored. With some tracks, I might sugarcoat some things in order to make an upbeat pop song. You don't have to lay every detail out, get into things warts and all but sometimes in order to really get a message across, you have to really get into it and if it paints me or the character in the story in a bad light then you just have to go for it. This song is actually about a situation one of my closest friends went through. I don't want to go into it too much, you'll find out in the song but in a nutshell she unfortunately lost her brother and things didn't end well between them before he passed. She asked for me to write a song about it, to get things out in the open and get a lot of things off of her chest and I obviously agreed but I couldn't get more than three lines out. As the song was a big deal to her, I didn't want to just rush it and write any old rubbish so I put it to one side and hoped to return to it once I had a little more inspiration. During my songwriting sessions with Deneil, I showed him the original draft and told him the story behind it. He was really interested in it, took my notebook and said "leave it to me". The next day, I came back to his little studio and he had the rest of the song finished and had already recorded a demo. It was just beautiful and everything I wanted it to be. I can't take all the credit for this, most of it came from the talented hands of Deneil. He is a true talent and I'm so glad I brought this song to his attention because it's one of my favourites and my friend adores it too. We had a little cry listening to it together. It's quite vocally challenging and tears come to my eyes whenever I hear it so performing it will be a bit of a challenge but I'm always up for it."


"Back Around"

It's been five long years, endless seconds and hours since I last saw your face
Been stuck in a constant loop, reliving our last moments everyday
It wasn't the warmest of partings, I said a few words that I eternally regret
No goodbye, no see you later, just a shrug and a door slam
You know that I'm not one to put it behind, I'm always defending my pride
But now that you're gone, I just lie awake and there is no escaping this shame

There's this clenching in my gut, tremendous lump in my throat
Hate that I'm only thinking of the good now that you're away
If I had a heart, let my guard down, I would have shown my love every day

And if I could bring it all back around
I would take it all back, I'd take everything back again
And if I could turn back the hand of time
There's so many things I wouldn't say, I'd do it all differently
But my whole world has crashed and there's no way to escape
All these feelings don't matter now and the tears came too late
Though you'd still be gone, we could've had a goodbye if I wasn't so proud
I would take everything back, take it all back if I could bring it back around

Marks on the calender, many sunrises and sunsets and I'm still haunted by this ghost
Still can't believe I'll never touch you again, hear your voice on the phone
Blood is so much thicker than water, I should have stood by you through whatever
I was young and foolish, so wrapped up in my own little fantasy world
Didn't devote a second to anyone but now you're always on my mind
It's ingrained, like a tattoo, a permanent reminder of my stupid selfish past

And there's still a clenching in my gut, tremendous lump in my throat
Hate that I'm only thinking of the good now that you're away
If I had a heart, let my guard down, I would have shown my love every day

And if I could bring it all back around
I would take it all back, I'd take everything back again
And if I could turn back the hand of time
There's so many things I wouldn't say, I'd do it all differently
But my whole world has crashed and there's no way to escape
All these feelings don't matter now and the tears came too late
Though you'd still be gone, we could've had a goodbye if I wasn't so proud
I would take everything back, take it all back if I could bring it back around

As the sun goes to sleep and all the sky turns to grey
I still lay here, staring into the abyss, not a thing has changed
Tears may dry and times goes on but I'll never feel your embrace
All the flowers have died, stars faded out, I can never do it all again

And if I could bring it all back around
I would take it all back, I'd take everything back again
And if I could turn back the hand of time
There's so many things I wouldn't say, I'd do it all differently
But my whole world has crashed and there's no way to escape
All these feelings don't matter now and the tears came too late
Though you'd still be gone, we could've had a goodbye if I wasn't so proud
I would take everything back, take it all back if I could bring it back around


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