Afterlife
No body knows what is behind the death curtain.Is it paradise,fire,or a man we should pay no attention to?
Will I see you there,waving on the arrival platform?
Waiting so long to see me,wondering what I have to say to you.
If we meet again....
I will avert my eyes because I hate confrontation.
I wont look in your eyes and see the condemnation.
Finally you will get to hear my explanation.
I will lay it all bare,like a vivisection.
Lets assume you will be there waiting Patiently. That is better than the alternative of no one there to greet me. I will come clean and tell you my dark secret,
I wasnt what I claimed. Nothing but a counterfeit.
If we meet again....
I will avert my eyes because I hate confrontation.
I wont look in your eyes and see the condemnation.
Finally you will get to hear my explanation.
I will lay it all bare,like a vivisection.
I willingly strayed.you have no fault in this. Your only wrong Was trusting a girl who couldn't trust herself. We knew I couldn't take temptation,even if it meant mutually assured destruction.
If we meet again....
I will avert my eyes because I hate confrontation.
I wont look in your eyes and see the condemnation.
Finally you will get to hear my explanation.
I will lay it all bare,like a vivisection.
We would talk and skip stones on the river Styx. We must get to this bottom of this. This is where it gets cruel,this is where I can't ask forgiveness. I did not once stop loving you. But I still wanted another's lips.
If we meet again....
I will avert my eyes because I hate confrontation.
I wont look in your eyes and see the condemnation.
Finally you will get to hear my explanation.
I will lay it all bare,like a vivisection.
I can admit this now and here. I can admit it where the skies are always clear. Both of our days have ran their course. Only yours were cut so short.
If we meet again....
I will avert my eyes because I hate confrontation.
I wont look in your eyes and see the condemnation.
Finally you will get to hear my explanation.
I will lay it all bare,like a vivisection.
song description:
Simply Erica and a piano. The piano is played lightly and very delicately. Erica's naturally high pitched voice is subdued and becomes very haunting in its confessions. There is subtle irony involved. Singing a song about eventually facing her ex lover,while using the signature instrument of her new lover. In spite of her personal life being rather public,until now Erica has never involved it in her music.
erica's comment: I really did not want to do this song. But whether i like it or not,publicly is probably where I work out things best. Honestly since Natalya was killed,I have been wallowing in a kiddie pool of self loathing. I thinki needed to get this off my chest.If you can't tell,it wasnt even originally supposed to BE a song. It was originally a letter I had written to Natalya after she had been killed. A therapist thought it would be helpful to write letters said Natalya could read them. Seems kinda weird,as I was delusional enough as is. but this is my sending of that letter,and finally coming to terms with her loss....and my role in it. sounds similar to:
