KAMIKAZEblog
I have to do this. It's not often that I 'bare my soul' outside of my songs, but I have to. It's also not often that I regret things, but I do have a conscience. A small one, but a real one.
Here's what the story is, or what you know of it. You may remember that when I was 14, a 15-year-old boy called Alex Kerry joined Moronic Changeling as a rhythm guitarist. People often thought that we'd make a great couple, being as we were both so young, and everyone else at DBM was 20+, the majority 30+, and there also weren't many young boys in the industry in general for me to get my claws into, most underage musicians are female. Alex, not knowing me very well, asked me out on a date to the Birdies. I'd never had a Birdies date, so I might as well give him a chance. We got a bit drunk - Kettlechip Academy never gave a damn - and sneaked off to lose our collective virginity. Being as we weren't exactly careful, I got pregnant, and seven months later (she was two months premature), I gave birth to my first child, Nickalexa 'Nikki' Kamikaze. She was miraculously problem-free despite her early birth. Soon after, for some crazy reason, I got pregnant again. Alex and I got married on my 16th birthday. Six days later, 7/4 happened, and my second child, Alexander Joshua, was born, again three months premature, though not problem-free. After my house was destroyed during 'Road To Joy', the kids and I moved in with Jimmy while it was being rebuilt.
Well, that was a nice fairytale, wasn't it!?
The night of my Birdies date, I got bored of sitting around with a guy who said that we shouldn't drink. I was like, WTF, so I went to sit at the bar with Jimmy, who had been deserted by Sophy. (Typical.) We had become mutually fond of each other, as good friends, over the years. We had a few drinks, and yes I lost my virginity that night - but Alex didn't. Jimmy wasn't sure because of my age, but he had promised me never to age discriminate. He said that was to do with music, not sleeping with a girl 29 years younger than him. Eventually, I pulled. Two months later, I found out that I was pregnant. To protect Jimmy, I had to sleep with Alex. I managed to convince him (see, I'm good at this), and then pretended I had a flu bug for another month before dusting off the double blue line. Nikki was born on her due date. I did a similar thing with AJ, except I was quicker off the mark and he was actually premature, due to congenital Dark Blue Flu. (A fair amount of DBM got syphilis, Mikki Moo's probably passed it round half the music industry by now, but who am I to judge?) Alex started to get a bit suspicious when we both had this mysterious STD, but all the same, we got married, and he died never finding out. I moved in with Jimmy during RTJ, and never planned to move back, that part of my life was behind me.
Please don't think any less of Jimmy, we're both consenting adults (in the loosest sense of the word) of legal age, who love each other - and you can't help whom you love. If you're going to throw shit, throw it at me, Jimmy's been through enough recently with this Purger stuff. I feel so guilty for never explaining to Alex that I was cheating on him and that the daughter he loved so much isn't his. He was a sweet guy, totally not my type, he deserved better.
Do I think that The Purger is untouchable? Let's just say that I won't be performing that song again ....
((OOC : The post where she was told to admit this is
here.))
Edited by user 08 November 2010 22:47:30(UTC)
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